Crying at Caribou

So I’m sitting at Caribou, sulking over all this junk that’s gone on in my life: my best friend lying to me over and over again, my ex-boyfriend leaving for California all of a sudden after breaking up with me by telling me I’m unlovable and too fat, having a crappy Valentine’s Day (which used to be my favorite day of the whole year), etc.

I’m just sitting here feeling sorry for myself, and I look across the room and see a good friend of mine on his laptop.  His back is to me so I can kind of see what he’s doing, and I realize he’s looking through pictures of his mom who passed away less than a year ago.  They were a very close family and she was such an amazing woman.  He has been fairly quiet about his feelings, but I know he is still hurting by the way he pushes others aside and spends all his time at work or the gym.

 Here I am, concentrating on only myself and my life’s issues, and nearby my friend is dealing with his dead mom.  It makes me cry.  There is so much going on outside of myself.  Tonight I got a glimspe of two main things: 1)how in tune with myself and out of tune with others I am, and 2)my friend’s lonely pain.  It all makes me cry. 

Warning: TMI

TMI stands for Too Much Information.  If you read my blog, be prepared to get too much information.

Most of the time, too much information makes people uncomfortable.  Not me.  I LOVE information, especially personal and honest information.

Honest information gives us more a more accurate picture of what’s really going on.  It can be used to guide us, to help us grow, and to make better, informed decisions.  So I aim to be completely honest (as best as a human knows how) and say things like they are, uncensored, so as to provide more accurate information for others to work with.

The point of my honesty and openness will be to give truth, even if in the end that means “ugly truth.”  I love truth.  I call myself a TRUTH SEEKER, but more on that another time.

Valentine’s Day – 2008

So, Valentine’s Day.  Yeah, that was today.  It used to be my favorite day of the whole year.  This year things changed.  I won’t go into details just yet, only say that my heart hurts from all the disappointment in my life – Valentine’s Day just being the most obvious topic today.

 I’ve been thinking about starting a blog for sometime now.  I need somewhere I can be completely honest about my life, get my junk out (through writing), and possibly get other’s opinions on my situations.

This page will be my own personal space online.  I don’t plan to ever tell anyone I know about it.  I just want a place to take my load off my shoulders for a while.  Please feel free to read and comment, I’d love to hear your stories and opinions, too, if you’re willing to share!